Monday, April 30, 2007
My weekend was such a bad 1...i cried 4 the 1st time after a long time. I've nvr cried after my arwah abah's funeral...the reason i cried was bcos my family got 2 know of my relationship wif my dearest. Somehow, they thought dat i was gonna forget the family...& i dunno how they got dat into their heads. I know dat i shud take care of my family 1st & foremost & dats wat i plan 2 do...my dearest & i hav talked abt. Even she has 2 take care of her family...& she has her dreams 2 achieve. Guess my mum was angry @ me cos i said dat she nvr gave me the freedom, which i didn't say!! I juz told my sis dat i had nvr been able 2 go out wif my frens...dats all!! Guess my words got mistranslated...well, i juz asked 4 my mum's forgiveness. Hope she did...
I juz hate it wen i see my dearest cry...my heart aches, even rite now!! Wen i saw her cry, i was totally devasted...i was suppose 2 make her happy. And now dat this problem has arise, the same problem dat she has gone thru b4...i'm even more angry @ myself. All tis is due 2 my own faults syg...not ur's. So, don blame urself k syg...?? I take full responsibility for my actions & will try 2 correct them...i juz hope dat u'll b strong while waiting 4 tis whole thing blow over. In the mean time, both of us wil hav 2 b strong as tis is OUR test, rite syg..?? Juz pray & hope dat everything wil go our way k baby..?? I love u & i can't bear 2 lose u...my love, my happiness & my future dat i wan 2 build up.
Dear Allah swt, please open up my family's heart 2 accept our relationship & love...please open their hearts 2 bless tis relationship of ours. Please keep us 2gether til the end of time for our love is true & only You know dat it is true...please fulfill tis prayer from your servant who's looking up 2 You for a chance 4 happiness wif the 1 he truly loves. Amin Ya Allah...
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